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NEW HOME

2006-10-28T18:55:00.000+08:00

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Qu0ty

2006-07-08T12:52:00.000+08:00

"There's always a possibility that a person can get attracted to another. It's HUMAN NATURE. It's not wrong. But that's why your in a commitment, you DISCIPLINE yourself. One may get attracted to numerous prospects and its okei. As long as YOU DON'T NURSE the feeling and WON'T DO SOMETHING about it. Borderline between CHEATING and FAITHFULNESS, recognize that reality that YOU HAVE ALREADY THE PERSON that can give you more than what you can get from the CHEAP THRILLS OF ATTRACTION"

RELATIONSHIP

2006-06-08T13:30:00.000+08:00

I don't want to harp on my mommy and daddy's relationship but i've seen how close they are. And their relationship made me remember always, that the most essential thing about a relationship is that one and one together always make two, and if you want to survive the relationship, you must always maintain who you are and continue to grow through change. They taught me that Mom has her life, and Dad has his life and they build bridges to each other. They taught me that in my future relationships (if ever,hehe) that i must always maintain my dignity and integrity because all relationships even if how magnificent they are, are temporary and eventually i am going to be faced again with me.

If i love someone, my goal is to want them to be all that they are and i will encourage them every inch of the way.

I don't know if some of you know the beautiful poem of Gibran about relationships. I'm going to quote a couple of sentences. It's so lovely. He says, " Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one also be alne. Even as the strings of a lute are alone, though the quiver to the same music." Isn't it nice? Go to someone and say, "I want to quiver with you." "Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping, for only the hand of LIfe can contain your hearts. Stand together and yet not too near together for the pillars of the temple, in order to hold the temple up, stand apart. The oak tree and the cypress do not grow in each other's shadow."

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2006-05-28T16:24:00.000+08:00

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2006-04-23T14:46:00.000+08:00

DA VINCI CODE REBUTTAL

Differences Between Book & The Bible
Here are only a few of the errors represented as fact in Dan Brown's novel, The Da Vinci Code.

The Da Vinci Code says...
Jesus is a great man or prophet in the earliest historical sources but was later proclaimed divine at the Council of Nicaea.

The Bible Says...
Jesus is called "God" (theos) 7 times in the New Testament. He is called "Lord" (kyrios) in the divine sense numerous times. No serious historian argues that these texts postdate the Council of Nicaea

The Da Vinci Code says...
The Dead Sea Scrolls along with the Nag Hammadi documents are the earliest Christian records

History Says...
The Dead Sea Scrolls are purely Jewish documents; there is nothing Christian about them. There is also no evidence any of the Nag Hammadi documents existed before the late second century A.D., with the possible exception of the Gospel of Thomas.

The Da Vinci Code says...
"One particularly troubling theme kept recurring in the [Gnostic] gospels. Mary Magdalene. . . More specifically, her marriage to Jesus Christ" (p. 244).

History Says...
The Gnostic Gospels, a collection of anonymous writings that blended pseudo-Christian ideas with esoteric spirituality, say nothing about Mary and Jesus being married. *

The Da Vinci Code says...
"The Bible, as we know it today, was collated by the pagan Roman Emperor Constantine" (p. 231).

History Says...
The Bible was not collated by Constantine, who died in 337 A.D. The Old Testament existed prior to even Jesus's day. And the New Testament, although it started coming together by the end of the first century (about 90-100 A.D.), was not formalized until about 393-397 A.D. (after Constantine's death).

The Da Vinci Code says...
Leonardo's worship of the goddess and the feminine can be seen in his Mona Lisa painting. That name comes from two Egyptian deities: the god Amon and the goddess Isis, whose "ancient pictogram was once called L'ISA. The title Mona Lisa, then, is really "an anagram of the divine union of male and female (p. 121).

History Says...
Leonardao Da Vinci did not even name this particular painting. None of his works, in fact, were titled by him. The Mona Lisa was catalogued by author Giorgio Vasari in his book Lives of the Artists (1550). It was he who first called it the Monna Lisa, which in English was shortened to Mona Lisa. It simply means Madame Lisa, and refers to the likely subject: Lisa Gherardini del Giocondo, the wife of Francesco del Giocondo

The Da Vinci Code says...
Sexual union between man and woman through which each became spiritually whole had been recast as a shameful act by the Church to 'reeducate' the pagan and feminine-worshipping religions.

The Bible Says...
The marriage bed is treasured and honored as pure (Heb. 13:4). Sexual activities and pleasure are normal, expected, and encouraged within a marriage. Sexual union is a divine moment for a husband and a wife -- a representation of the image of God that defines us. God established boundaries around sex to protect it and maximize its joy.

2006-02-19T23:00:00.000+08:00

huling taong kinausap mo?
:= si andrew pogi :)

-ano kulay ng damit mo ngayon?
:= white.

-kamusta ka naman?
:= inaant0k,pag0d.

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:= nagsimba, kumain sa labas tska naginternet buong hapon sa bahay.

-ano nasa paligid mo?
:= bsta bahay namin..ung sala

-may alaga ba kayong pusa?
:= sa awa nd Diyos WALA.

-malamok ba dyan?
:= WALA din, lagot kya cla sakin.dedbol cla.

-marunong kang kumanta?
:= sana..frustration k0 yan sa buhay hehe

-kelan ka huling natawa ng malakas?
:= ung kasama k0 c ring :)

-huling tinext mo?
:= "Tse!helo!"

-describe yourself in ONE word?
= maganda

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:= nagtxt

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:= indi pa baka dis year.

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:= wala..

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:= di pa,bakt mgnda b dun?

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:= donut

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:= water...

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:=naman..

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:= c d0di

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:= si angelo

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:= dk0 alam, c ozel ata..

-anong oras ka natutulog?
:= 11pm

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:= dpa ata

-anung sinusuot mo pag natutulog?
:= shirt na maluwag

-may malala ka bang sakit?
:= tamad, sakit b un?

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:= kumain ng burger

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:= oo naman..

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:= first week ng feb.

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:= ndi, at never ak0ng makakagat ng as0 :)

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:= last week ata un, panay ulan dit0 sa bicol eh

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:= 00 naman

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:= nope..

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2006-02-03T20:14:00.000+08:00

Want a story to learn about love and perseverance?Read this one sent by my good friend via the internet. It's a story told by Mildred Hondorf, a former school music teacher from Des Moines, Iowa, who supplemented her income by teaching piano lessons for over 30 years. MIldred said that one of her students was robby, whose mother(a single mom) dropped him him off at Mildred's place for his first piano lesson. She would drop him off each time but never stopped by for a chat and waited for him in her old car from a distance. Robby said that it had always been his mother's dream to hear him play the piano.

Robby began with his first piano lessons, and relates Mildred, "From the beginning i thought it was a hopeless endeavor. As much as Robby tried, he lacked the sense of tone and basic rhythm needed to excel. But he dutifully reviewed his scales and some elementary pieces that require all my students to learn.

"Over the month he tried and tried while i listened and cringed and tried to encourage him. At the end of each weekly lesson he'd always say, " My Mom's going to hear me play someday." But it seemed hopeless. He just did not have any inborn quality. Then one day Robby stopped coming for his lessons.

To Mildred's surprise, Robby dropped in at her place after receiving a flyer that she was sponsoring an upcoming recital. She told him the recital was for the current pupils, but he said his mother had been sick and unable to take him to piano lessons but he was still practicing. " Miss Hondorf, I've just got to play," he insisted.

Mildred didn't know what led her to allow him to play in the recital. The night for the recital came, and the high school gymnasium was packed with parents, friends and relatives. Mildred put Robby up last in the program---" I thought that any damage he would do would come at the end of the program and i could always salvage his performance through my 'curtain closer'."

The recital went off without a hitch. Then Robby caame up on stage, his clothes wrinkled and his hair looked like he'd run an egg beater through it. Mildred thought, why didn't his mother at least make him comb his hair for this special night?

Relates Mildred:" Robby pulled out the piano bench and he began. I was surprised when he announced that he had chosen Mozart's Concert #21 in C Major. I was not prepared for what i heard next. His fingers were light on the keys, they even danced nimbly on the ivories. He went from the pianissimo to fortissimo. From allegro to virtuoso. His suspended chords that mozart demands were magnificent! Never had i heard Mozart played so well by people his age. After six and a half minutes, he ended in a grand crescendo and everyone was on their feet in wild applause.

"Overcome and in tears I ran up on stage and put my arms around robby in joy, "Ive never heard you play like that Robby! How did you do it?" Through the microphone Robby explained: " Well Miss HOndorf, remember I told you my mom was sick?Well, actually she had cancer and passed away this morning. And well, she was born deaf so tonight was the first time she ever heard me play. I wanted to make it special."

There want any dry eye in the house that evening. As the people from Social Services led Bobby from the stage to be placed into foster care, Mildred noticed that even their eyes were red and puffy. "I thought to myself how much richer my life had been for taking Robby as my pupil."

(Footnote: Robby was killed in the senseless bombing of the Alfred P. Murrah Federal Building in Oklahoma City in April 1995.)

2006-01-22T15:13:00.000+08:00

MANNY WINS!!!!!!

TKO'S ERIK IN THE 10TH ROUND!!!

2006-01-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

2005-12-22T17:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!

2005-12-20T20:06:00.000+08:00

*wen love dies you don't have to die with it*

Anyone who has gone through the agony of losing someone she loves so much will still wish against all odds to have that love back again. But, sometimes a love lost is a love gone forever. No amount of hope can bring to life a relationship that just died a natural death. Set yourself free. Let your heart spread its wings and fly. Remember, it may rain for 40 days and 40 nights, but still will not rain forever. One day the pouring will stop and there will be plenty of branches where you can find rest. One of these is where you will build your nest and start over again. It's never too late. Remember, you may find love and lose it but, "WHEN LOVE DIES, YOU NEVER HAVE TO DIE WITH IT".Remember that you cannot be a redeemer all your life. The best way to weigh a relationship is out in the test of fire. You cannot be a sooner of your mistake forever. Remember, we all fail and make wrong decisions but our blunders are meant not to bury us deep in misery but to teach us the valued lessons of life. Loving is always a learning process.With love, we learn how to care and sacrifice. We learn to share and reach out. We learn to be unselfish and give more than we can. And when everything doesn't end well, we learn how it fells fall, we strive to get back on our feet and move on. This is where we learn that "Life doesn't end where our heartaches begin".THERE IS NO FUTURE IN A RELATIONSHIP OF LIES AND SELFISHNESS. It's true, there's life in love. But, there can still be life even after losing love if you leave the past behind and let your heart heal and give you the chance to find yourself again. The success of a relationship lies not only in the beauty of its beginning but in its consistency. Make a choice not on impulse but a decision based on a healthy balance of mind and heart. Let us always remember that "HAPPINESS IS NOT A MATTER OF DESTINY BUT A MATTER OF CHOICE".There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of its when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves."YOU DON'T HAVE TO FORGET SOMEONE YOU LOVE. WHAT YOU NEED TO LEARN IS HOW TO ACCEPT THE VERDICT OF REALITY WITHOUT BEING BITTER OR SORRY FOR YOURSELF. YOU WOULD BETTER OFF GIVING THAT THE DEDICATION AND LOVE TO SOMEONE MORE DESERVING". Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow."IF YOU LOSE LOVE, THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE FAILED IN LOVE. CRY IF YOU HAVE TO, BUT MAKE SURE THAT TEAR WASHES AWAY THE HURT AND THE BITTERNESS THAT THE PAST LEFT YOU WITH. LET GO OF YESTERDAY AND LOVE WILL FIND ITS BACK TO YOU". And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.A woman on the rebound could easily fall for sweeping emotions and be made to falsely believe that she finally stumbled upon the right man when what she just found is only someone to cover up for the love she lost. A man who makes promises with words and not with actions may never live up to fulfill them. "IT'S TRUE THAT LOVE CAN WAIT FOREVER BUT IT IS CRAZY TO STUBBORNLY HOPE FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T EVEN CARE OR UNDERSTAND HOW WE FEEL".Loving someone is never a sin. It is what people do out of love that sometimes makes it all wrong. The selfish desire to want that person is what makes it a sin. Don't think only of your feelings for real love doesn't ha! ve a place for selfish people. When there is love, there is always sacrifice.

--friendster bulletin p0st :)

2005-11-28T12:55:00.000+08:00

..i felt a marvelous peace descend over me..Of course, my heart had been completely pulverized for the past years like a dirty piece of laundry in the hands of a muscular laundress, still my spirit was not in the least broken--------perhaps not even perturbed =)

storm in a teacup. :-)

2005-11-15T11:49:00.000+08:00

Victim of Love,

I see a broken heart.

You've got your story to tell

Victim of Love;

It's such an easy part

And you know how to play it so well.

... I think you know

what i mean.

You're walking the wire

of pain and desire,

Looking for love in between.

- victim of love

--im reading Robin Norwood's book entitled women who love too much, im enjoying it pretty much so im going to share some of it :)

Typical Characteristics of WOMEN WHO LOVE TOO MUCH:

1. Typically, you come from a dysfunctional home in which your emotional needs were not met.
2. Having received little nurturing yourself, you try to fill this unmet need vicariously by becoming a care-giver, especially to men who appear, in some way, needy.
3. Because you were never able to change your parents into the warm, loving caretaker you longed for, you respond deeply to the familiar type of emotionally unavailbale man whom you can again try to change, through your love.
4. Terrified of abandonment, you will do anything to keep a relationship from dissolving.
5. Almost nothing is too much trouble, takes too much time, or is too expensive if it will "help" the man you are involved with.
6. Accustomed to lack of love in personal relationships, you are willing to wait, hope, and try harder to please.
7. You are willing to take far more than 50 percent of the responsibility, guilt, and blame in any relationship.
8. Your self-esteem is critically low, and deep inside you do not believe you deserve to be happy. rather, you believe you must earn the right to enjoy life.
9. You have a desperate need to control your men and your relationships, having experienced little security in childhood. You mask your efforts to control people and situations as being "being helpful."
10. In a relationship, you are much more in touch with your dream of how it could be than with the reality of your situation.
11. You are addicted to men and to emotional pain.
12. You may be predisposed emotionally and often biochemically to becoming addicted to drugs, alcohol, and/or certain foods, particularly sugary ones.
13. By being drawn to people with problems that need fixing, or being enmeshed in situations that are chaotic, uncertain, and emotionally painful, you avoid focusing on your responsibility to yourself.
14. You may have a tendency toward episodes of depression, which you try to forestall through the excitement provided by an unstable relationship.
15. You are not attracted to men who are kind, stable,reliable, and interested in you. You find such "nice" men boring.

2005-11-10T10:10:00.000+08:00

Pseudo-Relationships

Feelings.

Almost like a relationship, but not quite.

It is a phase where the persons involved are more than friends, but not quite lovers.

Pwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng wala.One or both of you may have admitted your feelings,possible ding hindi.

You just let your gestures do the talking for you. Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari.

Hindi kayo. Pero sa kilos niyo,sa mga sinasabi niyo,parang kayo,pero hindi.

This kind of "relationship" can happen at different stages for different reasons.

It can happen after a break-up.You still love each other, and you want to be with each other but you broke up for a reason.And for reasons that you alone know,ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan.

It can also happen before a relationship, iyong pareho kayong nakikiramdam. Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag- seryoso kaya kunwa-kunwarian lang muna. Testing lang. (tama ba un?!)

Pwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayo kasi isa sa inyo may ka-relasyon na.

Kaya habang hindi pa siya nakikipag-break doon sa boy/girl (sabi niya makikipag-break siya soon pero di naman niya ginagawa), wala muna kayong relasyon para nga naman hindi siya nangangaliwa kasi "hindi naman kayo."

This pseudo-relationship stage, for a time, can be fun.

Lalo na kung naghahanap ka lang naman ng "KALARO."

Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na may patutunguhan kayo kze wala talagang kasiguraduhan.

So bakit ang daming nagse-settle sa ganitong set up ganoong hindi naman sigurado kung may patutunguhan?

Iba't ibang dahilan.

Puwedeng for fun lang.

Puwedeng "buti na iyan kesa wala" or puwede na iyang "pantawid-gutom."

Meaning, habang wala pa iyong the real thing, doon muna sa kunwa-kunwarian.

For those who are not in a serious relationship, they would think that pseudo-relationship is better than no relationship at all.

It would be fun, if all you're after is that "kilig" feeling.

But then I learned that although it was only a pseudo-relationship, the emotions were real.

And usually, in this kind of set up, merong malulugi.. "UNG NAINLUV S TAONG TAKEN NAH...."

Una, you can't ask him/her to commit.

Since it's not really a relationship, you can't demand commitment from your partner.

Ano ba kayo?

You will always be uncertain about your role in his/her life.

You can't expect him/her to be always there with you.

And if you feel jealous of the other boys/girls, you just have to keep it to yourself.

Ano ka ba niya para magselos?

Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with her? You can't be sure if she feels the same way.

Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka rin niya.

Even if you are dying to tell her you love her, you can't. Because you're not sure if she will like it.

Baka mapahiya ka lang.

This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the relationship.

Or if there is a relationship at all.

Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much?

What if you have invested all your emotions and this gurl hasn't?

What if you remain faithful to her, not entertaining other guys/gals, only to find out that she is seeing other girls/boys?

Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships, it is fleeting.

When a disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that would be the end of it.

Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar sa isang pseudo-relationship.

Wala kang pinanghahawakan.

Kasi sa pseudo- relationship,

there is no "us."

Meron lang "you and me,"

hindi "us"

--tenchu blueiris :)

2005-10-24T07:54:00.000+08:00

Let the rain fall down and wake my dreams

I woke up this morning to the sound of rain. I stretched my arms up above my head and looked outside my window. The sky was overcast, but somehow it didn't feel gloomy.I laid in bed for a few more minutes and enjoyed the soft sounds coming from outside. Days like these, you have to enjoy the rain. hay, i love the rain :)

2005-10-06T14:16:00.000+08:00

_ordeal_

I'm starting at the tempest..
my eyes swollen,
my face muddled in timid confusion
my thoughts rejected
abhorence surmounts me..
cruising..
crushing..
tearing me whole apart...

Suddenly...
Im an invisible form,
i saw my savior
His light penetrating,
His face in radiance..
like an armor in insolence
He reigns amidst the darkness,
His hands a solace,
soft, mellow but firm..

Now..
the darkness,
turns into an array of a new beginning
the dawn shouts with praise,
My nerves rejuvinating..
My strength blistering with joy,
My heart rock with zest,
and my fear...
melted into pieces,
engulfed by his power..

In the wink of an eye,
He was there...
Yes! GOD IS MY CONSOLATION! :)

--i wrote this a year ag0 :-P because of depression hehe :)

2005-10-02T21:15:00.000+08:00

::been spending quality time with my parents for the past months..and i realized all over again how undeniably blessed i am..through thick and thin they were there for me and their love & strength never waivered. Thanks for being there. God knows I went through hell for the past few years. ( my erring years :) )sorry for straying far afield before, i broke your heart, yes but all is well now and i'm not going to make that same mistake ever again..that's a promise :)Having you guys around reminds me that heaven still exists..
lhuv you mom and dad..*happy tears*
now and always..

Dad, you've been the reas0n behind my courage in life :)
:: my savior Jesus Christ, thank you for reminding me evryday how much you lhuv me despite my tendency to go haywire :)
::i only asked you for one thing but you've given me so much more..
::i lhuv you with all that i am :)

"Please give me time, I need to know my own heart better."

***

::you asked for my forgiveness, yes i forgive you :)

2005-09-25T18:32:00.000+08:00

i know it would take me a lifetime to forget you. But then again, why would I want to? Maybe I'll just keep you tucked in a tiny part in my heart all yours so that I can always look back with a smile. I loved you. Maybe I still do. Perhaps I always will. Yes, the music will die down. But like your old favorite classics, I'm sure it will, for a long time, linger on in sweet refrains...

2005-08-20T21:18:00.000+08:00

CHARIOT

Gavin Degraw

Staring at a maple leaf

Leaning on the mother tree

I said to myself we all lost touch

Your favorite fruit is chocolate covered cherries

And seedless watermelon ohhhh

Nothing from the ground is good enough

Body rised

It puts over me

Chorus:

Oh chariot

your golden waves

are walking down upon this face

Oh chariot

I'm singing out loud

To guide meGive me your…Strength

Remember seeking moons of birth

Rings made mirrors of the earth

The sun was just yellow energy

It is a living promise land

Even over fields of sand

City filled with burden

Cover me

From bringing back

More than a memory

Chorus

You'll be my vacation away from this place

You know what I wantHolding that cup,

It's pouring over the sides

Makes me wanna spread my arms and fly

:::: my current favorite song...sssssiiiiiggghhhhhh :) :)

i can't think of any decent p0st kc harhar..

::: i'm just so so happy now.. contented and sane :) hehe!

:::"I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I live." i know you'll agree... ;)

:::Now, with so much in mind & heart, I find no reason for whining.

2005-07-23T12:27:00.000+08:00

An uber-young pastor gave this letter for me. He'll be living for states this august. I just love the content, it's beautiful so I'm sharing this with you. I love the way he speaks on pulpit.. Super galing! I must have been in the toilet when God decided to hand out speaking-in-public skills. I would rather spend all my days pulling out my teeth than to speak in front of a lot of people! And to think na he's only 19. He knows from where he speaks of. Nice guy. God must have been with him all this time. Super blessed!
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Hi Stephanie! I'm writing because it's all I can do because I'm broke. Consider this as my graduation gift to you in advance. Be prepared my friend. Be very prepared. I am going to spill some secrets, mostly lessons that aren't taught in class. But do not let your learning step here even if you memorize all these, there are still more lessons that you need to learn on your own.
The hardest lesson I've learned is that friends are earned, they do not just present themselves to you as you wish, you have to find them but you have to be a friend first before you can find one. They are living testimonies of your worth as a person, so choose your friends wisely. Choose but do not discriminate. Do not judge people according to the capacity of their brains or the thickness of their wallets or the extent of their popularity. Big brains don't necessarily go with BIG HEARTS. People with fat wallets usually have fat egos. Popularity doesn't guarantee a g0od character. Look into their hearts and the way they live their lives and how they accept you for being you.
Do not impose yourself on people who clearly don't want to be with you. Some people will hate you NO MATTER HOW GOOD YOU ARE TO THEM. Steer clear of these monsters, they will feed on your self- esteem. You are under no obligation to prolong the presence of such hideous creatures. People hate and love you for no apparent reason. But try to be lovable anyway, you have nothing to lose on being good.
Talk to Pastor and Ate Dess regularly. Tell them everything that's troubling you with all honesty. Don't hold back. If you encounter serious problems, ask for their advice. They love it when you do that. Life in college is TOUGH. Growing up is tough. But hold on to your principles. You need to have a good grip on them especially when the emotional roller-coaster starts. Amid confusion, don't lose sight of your goals and of what you want to be. It is important to dream, but be realistic. Let Pastor and Ate Dess be your connection with reality.
Don't allow your world to be governed by just one person. Expand your horizon. Don't be too dependent on someone. Depend on yourself, but do not be too self absorbed as to think that you can exist alone, without human company, it is not only weird, it is unhealthy.
Cultivate your enthusiasm. Develop your personality. You have so much potential. Laugh with a lot of people but RESERVE YOUR TEARS TO THOSE WHO TRULY CARE.
It is not advisable to fall in love while you still have your studies to attend to. Stay away from it if possible. You can't avoid it but at least throw some barriers in its path. Be cautious of that feeling and don't let it take root. Love is a totally new experience that can turn you into a totally new person. Pray that you will not fall prey to love's fatal embrace. Not yet anyway..Be good!
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end of his letter. Nwei kuya if you ever get to read this, thank you! I've always looked up to you though I'm a year older..ahehe! kahiya db?..another hehe to that! Bon Voyage!

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--YOU already pushed my buttons! wrong m0ve dear. Do they ever shut up on your planet?..You are such a pain in the HEAD.For heaven's sake stop accusing me.The nerve!Wow.Who do you think you are?..Thank GOd when Satan hand out WICKEDNESS, i was hiding in my room.hehe! You were there instead :)--this isn't any bit like me,hehe! I was just so pissed off when she cussed me out!Hence,it unraveled my kindness and patience sakanya. BUt oh well, i hope i will find it in my heart one day to forgive her though che said that the only emotion due her is PITY, never anger or near-anger.So true, but then again she is to0 much.ala nman ako gngwa sknya.i was GENUINELY nice to her all this time.hay naku. The gurl is forever stuck in the rut.*snicker*. U know sometimes wen you're angry u have the right to be angry but that doesn't give you the right to be cruel..SOME PEOPLE WILL HATE YOU NO MATTER HOW GOOD YOU ARE TO THEM!.God Bless her..

--jealousy and insecurity is a really bad combination.. it will afflict your bodies and p0ssess your minds. Sane people turn to mortal idiots.. :-)

2005-07-11T15:16:00.000+08:00

--Cleaning my room does take a lot out of me. I'm bleary-eyed, starving and half dead. Plus the thought of my research adds up to my oh-so-stressful-day. I'm waiting for my 5pm class, im two hours early. I'm starving real bad, ahehe, bought a ham sandwich& iced tea from the cafeteria, i would have ordered another sandwich, but i'm told ladies are not supposed to look like they haven't eaten in weeks. Ahehe!

--Read Dr. Harold Sala's column last week on Phil.Star about keeping the love alive (broken relationships, marriages)..wana share some of it that i really like reading all over again..

" How do you keep love alive? By not presuming on each other, by acts of kindness, by remembering that love is a fire that must be rekindled everyday"

and his closing thought.."You can start over but you never start again. You can change partners but you never go back to the genesis of a relationship and start from there."

--Saw the contoversial couple on TRL today..yes! TOM-KATIE..I've had enough, Tom's nauseating publicity stunts is becoming odious!

--and to SOMEONE who is just so so depressed trying to survive a break-up, puhleezzz stop accusing me of inane things just because you have nothing concrete to blame but me. You are tragically employed to a life of insecurity and paralyzing self- doubt at its highest- in equal doses. Well, it's never too late to delve on your reasons for acting that way..i think you just have to make the best out of your present situation.

2005-06-24T16:48:00.000+08:00

"an unsent letter"

"Day after day

she stood by her doorway watching..

'will he come?'

Night after night

she sits by her window waiting..

'will he come?'

Day by day

she called his name in prayers..

Night by night she shed bitter tears"

Many a pillow has been wet for many nights with many tears because you don't have the right answer. Even the longest rope has an end, i don't want you to be rudely awakened one day when i am gone. You gambled. You danced on every fete. The sad fact is you are EMPTY, a life that has wandered away from what you truly feel inside. You are emotionally insane. I wish that the intoxication of sin disappear and hopefully a new value system appears in you.

How could i have been so grossly mistaken that you will change?!

But i am glad because you finally uncuffed me from all the confusions/lies/ deceptions. That is the momentous decision you ever made.

I hope you will not sit in the quadmire of sin anymore..I will be the happiest person if i will see you one day being the person that God ought you to be..

Painfully i put the pieces together, no cover up, no feigning, no pride..just confession.

Summoning every nerve and muscle that i have..i am so happy for you..

as for me, God is wiping away the tears/fears from my eyes. My brand new world will have one metropolis where God is patiently waiting for me to lift it all up to Him.

What a wonder it will be for me to feel His love and hear Him whisper over and over again sweetly, I LOVE YOU, three words that humans oftentimes misused.

2005-06-23T13:33:00.000+08:00

Despite being accused of being in love- me talking about love is here to stay. I'm giving this much hyped- about emotion more time in the sun.

MAny people i know search for love. Some of them actually look for it in every person they meet! (uhmm hi aira, ge0rge & john..hehe!) Wishing one day for his/ her prince/ princess to come and give them their heart. and Only to them.. I've experienced and witness how one always set aside the best of us for the moment when that special someone comes into our lives. We say we look for love when what we we really want is romance. But who wouldn't want to have someone to call their own? How dreamy it is to hear a love song on the radio and know that every word could have been written for you. Romance can make just anything sweeter. It can consume you into a fairy tale world.

The mistake most of us make is that we set our sights too far to see what is right in front of us. Love is such an all encompassing reality to be confined to a single experience. Romantic love certainly is love. It is so special. so exciting and breathtaking but let us never fail to apprecite the other kinds of love yearning for a liitle bit of attention..

i can say that love is...

..when my ever makulit m0m text me almost everyday just to say.." Baby, be a good girl and take good care of yourself..magingat pag uwi ng gabi,mahirap na.."

..when i let my brother do some errands at home.

He hates it but he still does it anyway.. :p

..when my little cuzin would not leave me alone because she wants to play with me..Only with me..And when she trustingly puts her arms around my neck so tightly that i could hardly breath.

..when my bestest boy friend ( as in guy friend) drops everything he's doing just because i need someone to talk to. He's busy and yet he makes time just to be with me.. (hi grg! hugs..)

How many times have we wallowed in the mud of depression bcoz we're alone..or dont have any date..etc..But i actually think that it does not mean loneliness. The truth is that we are never alone. We are just too caught up in the idea of romance to see it..

True love will come in its own time..In God's time..He will bring with it romance- a walk on the clouds, wildly beating hearts, butterflies in the stomach..

But for now..we just have to focus on the love others so freely give to you..you'll find that it is just as exciting and fulfilling as being in love..

****

With all the people scrambling about, all the chaos, i find myself caught up in a haze. BUT FINALLY, SOLITUDE FOUND ME. :)

--- But i still wonder what makes every story perfect? Or is there such thing as "secrets" of having a perfect ending?..meron b?.. hehe!

Like those of Cinderella, Beauty and the Beast..Sleeping beauty..etc..

Ok, i know they are just pure fantasy, they live in a world of make believe created by minds that thirsts for perfect things..(just exactly like me!)

while i live in the world where the things doesn't always go the way i want it, where things that could go wrong would go wrong.

2005-06-19T13:31:00.000+08:00

A Day a With0ut Y0u..

One day, a young man and w0man was beside each other on a grassy hill. The day was perfect with a gentle breeze blowing and a setting sun that cast the surrounding into a golden glow.

The young man spoke, "i'm so glad you're here with me, sharing this w0nderful day together."

With a smile on her face, the young woman just looked at him, a thoughtful expression on her face that was casted by the sun with a golden glow, making her look extraordinary beautiful.

Then again he spoke, " all this beauty is no match to yours.The joy it brings couldn't come close to the happiness you bring to my life. I love you so much and i can't begin to imagine a life without y0u. I hope you'd stay with me f0rever."

Still, the young woman gave no resp0nse.

Perplexed by the woman's silence, he asked," Why are you all so quiet? Haven't you heard anything i've said?"

To this, the woman finally replied,"I've been listening to every word y0u've said. As a matter of fact it is what y0u've said that kept me silent."

" Why? Have i said something wrong?"

" No", -looking straight at his eyes, she continued-..

" It just made me think for a while..how long is "forever?" What does it mean to you? Then i realized that sadly yet true, despite the sincerity i may hear in your v0ice now, even though you try to say you can't live a day without me..after sometime you'd wake up one day, realizing that you were once blinded but now can last a thousand days without me!"

And with this, it was the young man's turn to be silent.

***

Juliet- Romeo

Midnight in a dark corner of the forest where the young lovers meet...

Juliet: Romeo, O, Romeo, where are you my Romeo?

Romeo: I am here , O lovely Juliet.

The young lover reached and held each other tight. After a while, they parted and sat beside each other under an old oak. The chilly night wind blew and silence surr0unded them.

Juliet: You've come...i am surprised.

Romeo: And why is that?

Juliet: For i thought you w0uldn't show.

Romeo: I still cannot understand, please enlighten your servant.

Juliet: Wise men say." the eyes are the wind0ws of one's soul." I can still remember the times gone by. The memories we've shared and ambitions we had. And i clearly remember what i saw in your eyes.

Romeo: What have you seen in them?

Juliet: LOve, with most sincerity of all the others i saw.

Romeo: What does bother you then?

Juliet: Time is fleeting and it scares me so. For now i can see, the love is gone.

Romeo:O, you must be mistaken, for i still love you s0.

Juliet: I beg you to stop. Go on no further, be still for a while. And hear me say, I love you dearly, But i must let g0, the love you had slipped away some time ag0.

Rome0: Why do you say this to me?

Juliet: Romeo, O Romeo stop fooling yourself , the one that you needed , is the one y0u've f0und not in me. Spent nights in deep th0ughts, and i realized , this is the end, you came tonight, not for love. But just to keep a promise made.

ROmeo: Believe in me, hear me say....

Juliet: Hush, Rome0, hush, I beg you to stop, search for your soul. The f0rce that brought you here tonight.

These w0rds brought the young man in deep thoughts...

Juliet: Now do you see? The things i saw in your eyes? It is no longer there isn't it?

Romeo: I'm so sorry, I don't know what to say...

Juliet: Goodbye w0uld be a start, and worry not for i hold nothing against y0u, i know through the immense pain you've brought up0n me i will gr0w..

-the end-

2005-06-10T19:50:00.000+08:00

my bLog is still under construction..

2005-06-06T17:56:00.000+08:00

a kind of singing quiet has been settling over me..

it arrived unbidden. It took me by surprise. I've had neither strength nor inclination to fight it off or question it. Maybe this quiet is nothing more or less than what some people mean by acceptance. Or peace. Or grace.But there's a richness to it, a texture, that i did not expect. It isn't passive; only still.

For me this quiet is another form of music. It's music without motion, just harmony frozen into time.

I wish i could explain how i've finally arrived at this amazing calm. Truthfully, though i suspect that i didn't achieve this quiet or even find it. It found me when the time was right. Peace keeps it's own schedule. and when it comes, it's a gift freely given, more than something earned.

A big part of the calm that has settled over me is the happy conviction that the HEART DOES HEAL after an aching HEART from all the bathetic/corny/effusive, emotional/lovey-dovey stuff that i went through.

NonetheLess, the LHUV will always be there somewhere inside of me.. a big part..=)*wink*

i have come to feel a proud confidence that i emerged from this with my spirit and FAITH intact..and a great deal of w0nderful life ahead of me.

This calm i feel now- in some ways it's a durable case of the contented exhaustion i've felt like after cleaning my oh so messy r0om for a whole day hehe, or playing music through the night, or w0rking r0und the clock on something that seemed terribly important at that time..

It's a calm that comes from knowing that i've held nothing back..=)

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2005-06-04T15:17:00.000+08:00

went to capitol with my m0m,to renew my passport..
due to unwelcome circumstances, our endeavor was futile bcoz it was s0brang hot inside the building..the queue was so long and there were many people pa kc meron pang jobs fair..a requirement and i unfortunately forgot to have my old passport photocopied..and there was no xerox machine available there..hay..i looked everywhere hopefully to find oNe outside the bldg under the intense heat to no avail..it was really ill-timed..so there we went straight home..

happy weekend everyoNe!..=)

chezie, tnx for making the eaRRiNgs..

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a pHrase often rings through my mind-- one that i read from my daily devotion journal.." Don't wish your life away."
i figured the author was just trying to damper on my excitement for whatever was coming.Or maybe she d0esn't know the w0rd FUN..or whatever..
But she featured bios of the victims of the terrorist attacks. They are pieces of pe0ple's lives. In many of them i read something that TUGS at my heart, something very personal. Little bits of information about a life cut short.. triple sigh..

"i read about men who w0rked hard and made lots of money, but who would rather be home playing with their children;about w0men who had recently married; about dead men whose wives gave birth not so long after the attacks. They are also stories of those who delayed doing the things they desired so much to do--and know it is too late.."

and i think, " Don't wish your life away."

i will be honest i avoid talking or even thinking about death..it's a taboo w0rd for me..not that i don't know where i will go up0n kissing the dust..i don't fear death it's what missing certain things/ points in my life that i'm so afraid of..the pe0ple i love and the list goes on and on..hay..i know it's inevitable but that's how i feel..but i will make an exception..anyway..

have you ever ask urselves these questions?..

"Do i spend so much time wishing for something to happen someday in the future that i totally miss out on the opportunities i have today?"
"How am i spending my time in these uncertain days?
and the most important question of all.....
"when i die where will i g0?"

think about it..

"3rd Doulos Summer Camp"

2005-05-29T05:55:00.000+08:00

im back!!=)

my bro and i just arrived home from almost a week of camping trip somewhere here in bic0l..the place was so nice..tnx to ptr ric0!=)

well there is always a preconceived notion that religious activities such as this is completely monoton0us, gruesome for some and just plain crap, but for me who practically grew up in a christian h0me its just sobrang fun& its so fulfilling to spend time with pe0ple wh0 shares the same faith..=)

Anyway,the youth camp was filled with sleepless nights, aching back, f0od![definitely!wahehe!],new friends [there were ab0ut 116 campers if im not mistaken ,games, w0rksh0ps, sessi0ns,SINGING&dancing!fun!FUN!and more fun with people with infectious love in serving G0d..

the first day was tiring..kc we had to travel for almost 2 hours..to an ALMOST secluded barrio i dont exactly know ab0ut..but nwei arriving there was w0rth the buhaghag hair, the oily skin, and the wrinkles due to impatience..harhar!

made lots of friends..hi aiza!hi achie liza! achie beth& achie grace! hi hubert! hi angelo! kuya bj! mark 1&2!=)sassy&her sister! the manalang boys &girls! diane! jen! abby 1 &2! Gessica! bel! scott! cody!and a lot more pa..

i so love our speaker by the way..s0bra..=) he is the s0n of the former Congressman Ptr.Edward Pilapil..he really did challenge me in my spiritual standing..He is s0brang rich but he is uber humble..actually he is more like a prosperity speaker for that matter..:)He spoke with blithe intelligence of the true situation..and realization swelled within me..=)

---one thing i will not forget in camp was the final challenge that we had to go thr0ugh..
the challenge was to go inside a very dark r00m ALONE, and find one matchstick hidden somewhere. i tell you the room was big and it was so dark! and i was s00000ooo000 SCARED! prior to my challenge i was freaking out kc nga 0bviousLy i'm scared of the DARK! i was at the verge of crying na tlg but kept in mind that FEAR=LACK OF FAITH..so eventually i did the challenge and the challenge after that in blindfold.and im so so pr0ud of myself! ahehe!---

and 0..my br0 met this girl in camp..and i think andrew likes her very much, he is so weird now, he turned to some sort of enthralled tickled pink boy who was given bunch of assorted toys..0000hhh my gawddddddd..i just can't picture my LITTLE BROTHER having some girlfriend na & falling in love..thinking all those mushy stuff gives me goosebumps--eewww! He's still a baby! my baby![he's 18 by d way&never had a girlfriend!] and wen he asked the girl for a dance on our banquet night i freaked out!wahehehe! it was just a berserk moment for me..waaah!!! mental conditioning..this is so not happening..okei im over acting! zip it!

The rest of the camp passed quickly, like a movie film being run off in a rapid blur, rushing to the climax but anyhow..i had sooo much fun!

wheeeeeeeeeeee!-----

"Before Sunset" & "Before Sunrise"

2005-05-22T09:27:00.000+08:00

I'm Bored..=-@

It's moment like these, when i have to look for some good hollywood m0vies in the CD rack hoping to mollify my boredom.

my choices:
~lost in translation
~In good company
~Wedding Date &
~Before Sunset

Chose the Latter....

If some of you have seen "Before Sunset" you will agree with me that it was uber B-O-R-I-N-G..pure conversation from beginning to end..haha!

The story was about Jesse and Celine (played by Ethan Hawke & Julie Delpy) meet each other once again in Paris after 9 years, since their first fateful encounter in Austria.
The characters know that their time together is short lived and instead of succumbing to the sexual tension that they have, they live out the intensity of the instant through profound conversations while immersed in an unfamiliar place..

Yes, it was boring BUT it gave me some thoughts to contemplate up0n..

like........

Goodbyes are inevitable.

Jesse and Celine knows that they must soon go back to their separate lives. The poignancy is in realizing that though the moment has ended, there is no real "finality" in the affair because the partings happen when things seem to have only just begun.

To echo Celine in "Before Sunset", "When you're young you just believe you'd meet many people you will connect with, but later in life you realize it only happens a few times."

It's those very words that i've been going back to. It's what im mindful of as well when i'm my very own patient,especially in these times when my peers or the people i meet are still exploring the interlacing avenues of the quarter life district [or whatever you call it].
To know that you can never replace the ones you meet at those intersections because "EVERYONE IS MADE OF SPECIFIC DETAILS", is to realize that the only remedy is to relish everything.

"To fill the unforgiving minute with sixty seconds worth of distance run", as Rudyard Kipling once wrote.

For the light is never lost, the sun never sets on happy memories, especially when the moment is lived out in it's entirety".

italian outburst..haha!

2005-05-20T06:40:00.000+08:00

"desidero smetterete appena di rendermi la caduta per voi ancora una volta quando non siete là interferire me..
stop che dite che lo amate quando avete deciso per lei un molto tempo fa quello è lei scegliete.
lo confondete un lotto perchè deve concludere questo senso? perchè? Diami una risposta ragionevole a quella forse che smetterei di essere questo perdente interessato"..

ahehe..a lot of emotions balled up into one..tried italian for my outburst..haha!i hope its not that bad..

as if man my message will get through..

my current state of mind-and heart- is still best summed up by the lyrics of the MIKAILA song, "The Art of Letting Go."

Put away the pictures

Put away the memories.

I put over and over through my tears

I've held them till i'm blind

They kept my hope a live

As if somehow that i'd keep you

Once you believed in a love forever more?

How do you leave it in a drawer?..

chorus:

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all

Unchain my heart that's holding on

How do I start to live my life alone?

Guess i'm just learning.....

Learning the art of letting go.

Try to say it's over

Say the word goodbye.

But each time it catches in my throat

You're still here in me

And i can't set you free

So i hold on to what i wanted most

Maybe someday we'll be friends

forever more

Wish I could open up that door.

Watching us fade

What can i d0?
But try to make it through

The pain of one more day

Without you

Where do i start, to live my life alone?

I guess i'm learning..ONLY LEARNING....

Learning the art of letting go.

2005-05-18T07:15:00.000+08:00

"Should i do it?"..

This is something i came up with after reading chris' entry about the "V" word.

As we all know relationships between young adult or even teenager for that matter are often tenous, tempestuous things- hormones are on overdrive [ as my mom puts it] and social factors play larger roles during this period.
Many start out believing that being a virgin at a certain age is social suicide. Its a rite of passage that must be handled at a stage where most girls are handling it- in highschool. Or so many believe.

I've read something from an article about a girl named Katrina 15, who is a sort of girl who watches what a lot of people do first before actually trying something out herself. In this case the popular girls at her highschool had been talking about sex threshhold and were smugly lording it over those who didn't, making tina feel pressured to go all the way. Her problem is that she doesn't have a boyfriend to share the momentuous occasion with. She's anxious to be a real woman, as she put it. But she waited so long that by the time she was 22, it wan't special anymore, but an albatross hanging around her neck.

Being preoccupied with social pressures like the need to feet in and to b e acknowledged as a woman, this is serious stuff.

Parents on the other hand feel too awkwARD about bringing up sex in any discussion because sex is clumsy, portentous topic.
After all, with the way films and TV shows have been exploiting it, there's no need to have that birds-and-the-bees-talk, parents sometimes reason out. Making the issue all the more volatile.

Most girls now have already eschewed the false modesty of Maria Clara. Virginity doesn't have the cachet it used to have.
But well, the idea of walking down the flower-lined path to marriage in unsoiled, virginal white, primly on to virtue and chastity is still the best held ideal for me..=)
I believe in waiting for the right person. I hear so many stories about how people lost their virginity and that if they could go back and change it, they would. I just don't want to be that kind of person who loses it to some guy i don't even know or care about.

Sex is a major thing it should be special.

"Being able to understand, comprehend and process the emotions and ideas going through your head when it comes to highly complex issues like sex is necessary, because when you step through that threshhold, you cant go back"..

hi chr!s thanks for the idea..hehe!..

2005-05-16T12:32:00.000+08:00

just arrived from leg..

i dont know whats wRong with my shoutb0x..tsk! tsk! evrytime i CLICK tag, COOKIES DEACTIVATED appears.kairita..i cant tag 2L0Y..sigh...
weL..from mundaNe things to kooky ones these are the things that eventuate wen i was in legaspi..

1. i saw THEM sa mall~ the IT-SHOULD-NOT-BE-SEEN-COUPLE at the course of my resurgence. Talk about my heart breaking into pieces AGAIN the m0ment i saw them..gud thing they werent aBle to see me, namutla ba namn ak0.haha! Txted ge0rgE right away, hay super thankfuL ak0 bc0z grg was there to comf0rt me and eventually reas0ned out to m0m nLng to get out from d mall bc0z it was too cr0wded blah blah....
2. so dad dropped us off sa UKAY2, funny bc0z mas cRowded haha!..but it was more than ok for me at Least i wont have any fears of seeing them for heavens sake..so to take my mind off them, i went looking for ballerina flats to no avaiL..i ended up buying this cute yellow t0p for onLy 50 bucks..
3. we celebrated our dear PAPU`s BDAY- she just turned 91..and still look stunning for her age..ahehe!
4.the church attendance this morning was copious and i know my dad was too happy for that..love his sermon t0o about praying for one another and stuff..made me rethink my praying habits..idLe..hehe!
5.my dear friend pam called me up, good to have heard her v0ice agaiN..been such along time since her last call..
by d way pam, ung pasalub0ng k0 dont f0rget! hehe! =)
6. to keep myseLf busy, im fiddling with the rubber slippers i bought and designing it with beads ang stuff..uber pretty....

"classic southern belle"

2005-05-12T11:27:00.000+08:00

You are the classic southern belle. You are kind,
proper, responsible, and very adult like. You
attend church every Sunday and you have grace,
poise, and are very dainty. You are mature
beyond your years and prefer gentlemen of well
kept families for your marrying. But don't be
afraid to break loose from your corset strings
once and awhile and just have some fun. You're
only a kid once.

What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)

Just got me thinking..

2005-05-03T16:29:00.000+08:00

For the past 7 months i became not so proud of myself. From a former miser, i had turned to the ultimate shopaholic. i cant blame myself though, after learning the "it-should-be-forgotten-thing" in my life i just had so many things in my head that i would have probably ended up jumping into a river hoping to be saved from some highly emotional torment/ affliction/ agony/ throe whatever.

maybe hoping for s0me temporary sanity i was able to find solace in buying things for myself after years of saving and all. ewan.. i just had this appetite to buy buy and buy some more to lessen whatever pain i was feeling at that time.

Dont ask me how much money ive spent..ask riNg about it.haha!
and it just got me thinking how stupid i was! i will never ever do that again..

ive learned my lesson well, hay s0brang nanghinayang ako sa money..

oh well im back to my old self again, - steph - the muckworm =) and dat makes me proud now..

2005-05-01T14:49:00.000+08:00

wear sunscreen.

if i could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. the longterm benefits of sunscreen have been proven by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more than my own reliable experience.

Do one thing everyday that scares you. [ oh well ive been thinking of cussing somebody out, im n0t uptight or what i just want to feel how it is to bad-mouth for once in my life..hehe. yayks.. i dont think i can ever do that, not in this lifetime..cgr0 for the fun of it lang.period.=)

sing.

Dont be reckless with other peoples HEARTS. Dont put up with people who are reckless with yours. [ karma baby,and it goes around....as crissie puts it]

Floss.

Dont waste your time on JEALOUSY. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, its only with yourself. [so true, i can just simply raise my hand and attest to this=)]

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults.

Keep your old love letters.

Stretch.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room. [you know my secret na..haha! kidding!]

Read the directions, even if you dont follow them. [futile you might think but it helps sometimes].

DO NOT READ BEAUTY MAGAZINES. THEY WILL ONLY MAKE YOU FEEL UGLY.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings.

Understand that friends come and go, but with precious few you should hold on.

Travel.

And my mom contributed something, she said Dont mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

And i asked my dad something to chip in too..

i love it..here goes..

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than its worth.

But guys.......

Trust me on the sunscreen.

2005-04-22T18:50:00.000+08:00

i really dont have a coherent thought in mind right now except love..sigh..

we aLways surmise our past love as a faiLure but it isnt aLways the case, we aLways attain something constructive from it..everything happens for the best-as the saying aLways goes..you gain strength,courage aNd confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look FEAR in the face. We must always do the thing which we think we cannot d0..

Wen you get into a tight place and everything goes against u..NEVER ever give up..for that is the just d place and time that the tide will turn..
and the heart does heal even if we tend to hunch our first love as the most special thing in the world thinking it will be our last and we will not love like this again..

but we will love like this again except that wen we d0, we will deny that we ever loved like this bef0re..

hi crissie.

2005-04-21T14:12:00.000+08:00

tickled pink by the thought that 4 months from now my lovely aunt is going to give birth to a mestiz0 baby b0y..h0oray! im visualizing wat he would look like..im so s0 wigged out.. cant wait..

2005-04-18T21:06:00.000+08:00

pls log on to www.one.org and sign up to support this cause to eliminate poverty..

What is The ONE Campaign?
ONE is a new effort by Americans to rally Americans – ONE by ONE – to fight the emergency of global AIDS and extreme poverty. The ONE Campaign is engaging Americans through a diverse coalition of faith-based and anti-poverty organizers to show the steps people can take, ONE by ONE, to fight global AIDS and poverty.